Independence vs Dependance

You know throughout i've been questioning myself, i've seen you grow and succeed in life. But me? im stagnating because i am falling into my comfort zone. it's worn both of us out. Somethings that i would like to share with you but frankly yes i admit it, am a coward. but i do hope that you read this. It breaks my heart to see you breakdown for someone who wholeheartedly loves me and has my family backing along with it. i questioned myself, ''What are you doing? here you have a lovely girl that loves you, treasures you and you are laying it to ruin! What's wrong with you?" i dont know... i feel inferior... like... i dont feel like a man that can provide for you as much as you have provided for me. Do you know that feels? And i feel that i have to mature and truly ruffle my feathers to know what it means to be one. You've sheltered me from the world and i thank you because i know you did it out of love. but i want to be That man that provides for you. May our hearts grow fonder towards each other as we grow in this time of reflection.