The Listening Ear

Many times we take our senses for granted. But of all these senses the most important would be our sense of hearing and a listening heart.

I am just amazed that people in general do not think about themselves more. To find the deepest point within themselves, to understand themselves allows for one to understand others. Empathy stems from the maturity of one's heart. Transient lives that people live without having the love and compassion for others will eventually lead to them to a point where they will fall - pick themselves up and perhaps go on a slower path.

You never truly know someone else and this was the sad fact that i was faced with as i allowed others to find me, to define me.

I guess it has backfired, it was not in God's plan that i would rely on others to define me. I am humbled by his love to be able to understand who i am and to even take me back for who i am. I am glad that he has stepped into my life and placed key individuals to remind me of what life truly means. All the glitz and glam portrayed by the media is all but a fabrication to fill one's inner soul. One rises to the top of the social ladder and after that? When they fall, they fall hard.

The building of one's character and strength from within is like placing a very thick mattress beneath that ladder that we all climb. When you fall, you know that at least that you have you for you. To be contented with yourself, the world around you. To know when to reach out to the souls that are evaporating around you.

Without the events that have transpired i will not be here today, from the unfounded fears and doubts that i have longed so much to run away from citing that i was to young to think, to naive to understand. The real reason was because i chose to ignore. I am sure that God has placed it such that he knows how much each individual can take, i thank him for not placing so much upon me that i will be driven to suicide - every waking day a blessing in disguise. To learn about myself more.

I am changing my perspective in life, perhaps that is why it is such a radical change that my inner spirit and heart is fighting with my mind. To change from society's view to an inner viewing glass that no one else can see but perhaps understand and to go through this transformation themselves.

Maturity is a psycological term used to indicate how a person responds to the circumstances or environment in an appropriate manner. This response is generally learned rather than instinctive, and is not determined by one's age. (Wikipedia)

It is learned and not instinctive. Many mistake maturity with a set of rules or an application of formulas. Knowledge and experience are important in crafting the Jar of maturity, it is not the liquid that fills it. God has allowed me to thread on this path, he knew all along that i were to fall, he made me fall and i thank him for it for i would not learned if i had not. He KNEW and that was the beauty in it. Amen.